If you come upon a point in time when you say, “I cannot live with myself anymore”, congratulations! You would have reached a point that many philosophers have reached and realized something important.
The realization is this: there are two “yous” in that statement. The ‘you’ who is the person saying the statement, and the ‘you’ whom the person saying the statement cannot live with.
What has happened is that you have let your external self go too far away from your inner self, and your inner self is crying out for you to come back to who you really are.